Words really can’t express how I’m feeling right now. I feel so empty! Like I’ve been drained, physically I look very ok, but emotionally I’m drained! I wear make up, have a big smile on my face, but deep down inside of me I feel this empty space.
Thank goodness for my lovely friends around me if not only God knows what would have become of me by now.

Went over to Benny’s on Friday, I sure had a good time, she’s such a sweet person and very strong! I wish I was half the woman she is. We really had fun and there was plenty of booze enough to get me drunk and send me to sleep, which by the way I really need because I haven’t been sleeping much for a while now and its really bad.

Got a call form my dad telling me my aunt passed away in her sleep, I was so shocked because this woman wasn’t ill! It really shocking! I thought after I lost my mum 6 years ago I will never feel this way again, but all of a sudden I feel the emptiness all over again. Look at me trying to keep my head above water, still one thing or the other tries to pull me down! I have to go for her burial which is going to cost me money I don’t have! Na wah oh! Anyway I’ll look on the bright side because its also an opportunity to visit my mums grave side which I haven’t done since she was laid to rest. God I miss her so much, I wish I could turn back the hands of time and tell her how much I love her. I never knew growing up would be so difficult If I did won’t have grown up so fast! God help me cause I feel like I’m going under!