On The Road To Recovery

Dear Diary
Its been like forever since I’ve been here. I missed you so much, I didn’t forget about you, I was not just in the right frame of mind. A lot has happen in the past few weeks.
From My man coming which was amazing after a whole year, then the baby mama drama and me being pregnant and also losing the pregnancy at 6 weeks and 2 days.
I never thought I would make it after losing the baby but thank God for his strength and my lovely family who stood by me showing their love and support.
If I was still pregnant today I would be 8 week and 4 days and my EDD would have been 21/01/11.
At first when I found out I was pregnant I had mixed feelings, but a part of me was excited. Even my man was so happy, I even had names picked out if the baby where a boy or a girl, I even had my birth plan until that fateful day. 29/05/10 is a day I won’t forget in a hurry. I thought I was going to die. I don’t think I’ve every wanted anything as bad as I wanted this baby, but I guess God knows best. I felt like my heart was ripped apart that day. It really hurt so bad. Even when I was taken to the theater, I apart of me prayed not to make it out, but I did and I guess God has a reason for that.
Its really not been easy for me, I try to keep a brave face but deep down I’m crushed. I can’t tell anyone how I really feel but you my dear diary.
I’m on my way to recovery though, but God knows its really heard, and I don’t think I would have made it this far if not for my lovely family and a few friends and of course my man, who has been there for me. He might be coming this week but he’s not sure yet. I really wish he can make it.

It feels good to be on my computer again and writing, now I know I’m on my way to recovery. I know it’s a long road, but I’ll get there.

Love gigi.


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